Looking for Inspiration

I am so uninspired today it's not even funny. It came to me as I was eating breakfast, which was a granola bar at my desk once I got to work, which is what I usually do. It suddenly occured to me why I don't really care to eat breakfast. How on earth can I think about food and eating a decent breakfast when I'm griping about the hours of sleep that I still need? I get up around 5:30 to be at work for 7. Way to freaking early, if you ask me, so now way will I be able to get up even earlier to eat a decent breakfast at home? It's all I can do to get my ass out the door on time as it is.

My snacks today are also very uninspiring. Actually, I really, really don't want them, even though I am craving healthier food today. First I tried to have some Laughing Cow cheese on my crackers. I've never had this cheese before, but I figured that since I usually like Boursin, Rondele, or Allouette cheese spread in the Garlic and Herbs flavor, I'd try this. No go. It smelled disgusting; I couldn't get it past my nose, so no way was it going on my crackers. And then the crackers - I've been eating Triscuits, which I like well enough, but they do leave a slight greasy and artificial aftertaste in my mouth when I'm done. Since Boyfriend and I have been shopping at Trader Joe's, I bought the TJ version of Triscuits, but they too tasted weird, even if they didn't leave the same aftertaste. As a result, I only had a few, but I'll try again tomorrow most likely.

Then there was the yogurt. I've never been much of a yogurt person. A couple weeks ago I tried to make my own fruit parfaits a la McDonald's. I bought plain yogurt and some frozen fruit, and packaged it up in little tupperware cups. First of all, the fruit thawed, so it ended up a bit watery and colorful. Then there was the plain yogurt issue. All I can say is YUK. I looked around the office and scored some sugar to make it more palatable, and managed to finish it. The next day I brought another one, was prepared with the sugar to mix in, and could only choke down about half of it. The other two in the fridge went to waste.

The other night when we went shopping I decided to get some YoBaby yogurt. It's a bit smoother, flavored, and not loaded with sugar. But now for some reason my lactose intolerance rears its ugly head and I am rather uncomfortable now after only a few bites. Looks like that stuff is a no-go.

It seems to me that whenever I try to incorporate new things into my diet, or substitute crap food for something better, it does not go well. Last night Boyfriend and I have been watching The Truth About Food on Discovery Health channel. One episode was all about how to get kids to eat new foods and accept foods they adamantly resist. The tactic was to keep getting them to try a little bit of it. After about 10 tries kids will be more accepting, and up to 30 tries might be needed to get them to accept a food. I know Boyfriend was paying attention to this and will use this tactic to try and get me to eat fish bait sushi. Not gonna happen. No way, no how. Raw fish is a hard limit. I won't even eat cooked fish if it's cold. My Swedish family always has pickled herring on the table, and I grew up with a jar of Vita Herring in the fridge. Not having any of it. He and I have very, very different tastes in food. He thinks I don't try anything. I know my stomach. I know what works and what doesn't. I know what kinds of foods I can actually eat and which ones I have to choke down with a funny look on my face, followed by copious amounts of water, then a trusted food to get the taste out of my mouth. I'm not completely adverse to trying new foods, but really exotic stuff won't work.

And for the exercise rant: I hate it. I hate that when I'm falling asleep at work I have to think about going to work out afterwards. I hate that it takes extra time out of my day. I hate that I have to schedule it. I hate that some people seem to love it, which makes me feel even worse about not liking it. I know I have to do it, but I'd rather it be effortless. If I lived in a city where public transportation was a more viable option (you try waiting at a sunny bus stop when it's 110F outside), then I'd walk more. My naturally fast walking pace and my desire to do things as quickly as possible would ensure that I get enough exercise.

Now I just have to look forward to lunch, and the stuff in my desk that I brought to eat so does not look good, so I may decide on an uninspiring fast food lunch. If it were up to me, I'd just go home, go back to bed, and maybe have a bowl of cereal - the perfect food for the uninspired.